I'm so grateful for 13 years of affordable housing in this beautiful home of mine.
I'm grateful for that specifically because having minimal financial obligations allowed me to do so much with my time and energy that working full-time for another would not have allowed.
Here's what these 13 years here afforded me:
I got to be at home to raise my girl right.
I built a few beautiful businesses.
I took a year off to heal from an injury with Paige's help and the support and kindness of many others.
I published two lovely books.
I built some gorgeous websites.
I wrote hundreds and hundreds of honest pieces.
I started a podcast and recorded hundreds of shows.
I got to return to university after quitting when Paige was a few months old. I now have an honours degree.
I got to heal so many parts of myself and inspire others in the process.
I got to enjoy my very first year EVER of living on my own since I went from being a kid to raising a kid. It's been glorious to be able to stay at home to make the most of my solitude.
I had the space and the time and the freedom to transform my darkness into light in a way that felt safe and right.
That is what I most needed. That is what I was always after and what I was obsessively focused on.
I WANTED TO BE LEFT ALONE TO DO THE MOST IMPORTANT WORK OF ALL.
And that's exactly what I was given and exactly what I did.
So thank you, life, for letting me do that without interference all these years, and thank you for the millions of miracles you lined up to make that possible.
I'm honoured to have been in a position that allowed me to spend every day doing what I love and following my own rhythms and putting out everything that flowed through me.
And I know that even a job can't stop me from from continuing to do all of that yummy good stuff cuz that's the stuff I'm made of.
I am so proud of myself for remaining true to what I value despite the world's pressure to strive for things that don't actually matter.
I love what I'm about. I love what I stand for and what I don't stand for.
I love saying a big FUCK YOU to the status quo by thinking and living independently of it.
I love how I've chosen to live and where I ended up living and how beautifully it served me.
My home - this one specifically - has provided so much for me as I grew into myself and my power.
It protected me as I faced each issue head on and simultaneously showed my daughter what it means to live truthfully, authentically, potently and on purpose.
No, money was not a motivator. But it is now. A new chapter and all that jazz.
I'm just so thankful that all my needs were met this whole time while living on so very little. Magic hottie that I am attracting fabulous people and things every step of the way.
I'm proud of the fact that I cared more about time and creative freedom than money freedom or even financial ease because look at what I produced!
I honestly felt like I had better and more important things to do than try to make money.
Because I fucking did.
I wasn't wrong at all. I knew what's up. And I knew that I was doing all the hard work that would create a solid foundation for my girl and now for me.
I invested into myself and into her in a way that money can't buy. In a way that only quality time spent can create.
I rebuilt myself and my life from the inside out and gave my girl the kind of upbringing she deserved because of it.
No she didn't have the extras. But she had what mattered. ME.
And look at me now.
I'm now a woman who loves herself after decades of the opposite.
I'm now a woman with a grown child who is beautiful and exceptional and is one of my very best friends.
I am now a woman with a HUGE family and support system after riding solo for so much of my life.
I am now a woman.
A full grown woman.
An empowered and beautiful and beaming woman.
I am a woman I am honoured to be.
And today I'm feeling like I'm ready ❤️
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