Breaking Boundaries
Me: “I didn’t have to work to get here. The work was to not go where it’s not like this.”
Her: “So true.”
Me: “And that’s all the dance is for everybody. It’s the art of learning how to stay right at home.”
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Him: “Things are probably about as good as they’ve ever been for me. The more I let it happen, rather than try to make it happen, the more it does happen. But there’s still a part of me that sometimes gets caught up on ‘How do I make this happen?’, whatever this might be.”
Me: “Which comes from a lack of trust in your own being to orchestrate it on your behalf by doing what you’re compelled to do in each moment, and thinking that somehow might not be enough.”
Him: “Yep.”
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Me: “You can’t fix an illusion. And every problem is an illusion. It’s about seeing through it and seeing the truth and realizing there isn’t an issue beyond the fact that you are misperceiving what’s happening, and you're misperceiving yourself.”
Her: “Yes.”
Me: “You already know the truth. And the fact that this feels like shit, and it feels constrictive, tells you you’re not perceiving correctly. You’re hurting. And suffering. And believing you’re powerless. That’s not the lens of truth.”
Her: “No.”
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Her: “I’m testing the boundaries at the moment. I’m working with another teacher who you know, and just before I made an offer on this MasterClass, I had a session with her, and she had tested me and said, “Okay. Well, what do you feel comfortable offering?” kind of thing, and I felt like I handled it quite well. But I really struggled when it came to yours because there was nobody holding my hand, but I pushed myself with it as well. You were like, “Offer what’s true.” and I sat there with it and then I felt for my edges and I got to this point and I was like, “Oh, my God. I’m gonna do this thing on top of this other thing. I just did that and then I’m gonna do this”. And I was like but this is the only thing that feels right. Like I can’t, I couldn’t offer you anything else. There was nothing else I could give you that would be true. And I was just like okay, this is where I gotta go.”
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Batshit sane.
Almost no one wants to go all the way.
The saner you are, the more insane you (and they) appear.
How do you know you're insane? You want this moment, this situation, this person to be different.
Stop interacting with it as if it's real.
He’s caught in the delusion he’s at the mercy of his beast.
When you’re attached to form, you suffer. When you’re devoted to truth, you fly.
It’s the inability to withstand the intense aliveness of being that drives the impulse to dilute or run from it, just as the inability to withstand it drives the impulse to seek that same jolt of aliveness through superficial means.
When someone is free, they appear narcissistic to those still bound by themselves.
You can’t reason with insanity.
It’s all your own (un)doing.
Sanity is the new black.
The line between truth and delusion is imperceptible to most.
Human: runs from the present / dwells on the non-existent past / fears the illusory future / perpetually resists what IS (and suffers because of it) / consistently holds back truth / avoids making the true move / believes things, others, and life need(s) to be a certain way in order to feel okay / creates and then lives within endless, baseless, utterly insane stories / denies its sovereignty / blames the world and others and pretends to be a victim / takes zero responsibility for the creation and quality of its own experience / looks out instead of in… | Being: “And you wonder why you feel like shit?”
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If there’s an exchange, it isn’t pure.
There is no workaround.
It’s not love or fear. It’s love and fear. Love includes the acceptance of fear. And anything else that arises.
If your goal is to please her, you’re doing two things wrong.
All couples have problems. All people who look outside of themselves for something / anything have problems.
#fillinthegapsifyouloveme
“Hey, I ignored myself. Can you do me a solid and correct it on your end?” What you’re actually saying to someone when you ask or expect them to change.
It’s not about how long it lasts. How long does it remain true?
It’s not real love unless and until you have zero need / expectation / desire for the other to be different in any way.
Speak the truth or walk away. It’s the loving thing to do.
Most would rather have another cater / adapt to their dysfunction(s) / delusion(s) than to do the work necessary to correct it themselves.
I don’t work to keep us together. I work to break things apart.
Love and attachment cannot coexist.
Love is when nothing remains.
The less I care, the more I love.
Loyal to truth; not the other.
Full self-ownership is my kink.
Almost no one wants to go all the way.
GO. ALL. IN.
Hearts don’t break. Attachments do.
If your shit can be fucked with by another making moves, your shit clearly needs a good fucking.
If it’s a NO for your being, it’s a NO for theirs, too. No exceptions.
If with or without doesn't feel the same, your work is to bridge that divide.
Even when I'm single, I move like I'm taken.
Others aren’t distracting you. You’re using others to distract yourself.
I love myself. I love being free of myself.
What I want cannot be bought. Nor found within another.
If you made your dating choices from your lower self, you may be entitled to compensation.
No need to show them the door. They’ll escort themselves out naturally, the closer you stay to you.
The real ‘no contact’ is with the abuser in your head.
Don’t aim for another. Master yourself.
Their moves are not your business.
Exposure is love (mis)perceived as a threat.
You want to be chosen without choosing yourself.
Even when you choose poorly, you still choose perfectly.
I blow shit up endlessly. Because I love you and I love me.
Your willingness and capacity to suffer with and for another, is not love (for yourself or for the other).
Giving to receive isn't giving. It's manipulation.
If there’s nothing left, I’m out. If there’s no thing at all, I’m in.
What’s best for you is what’s best for them.
You can’t be mine if you are not yours.
I cannot be kept. I just stay where it’s true.
Breakups don't break what needs breaking.
Intimacy only exists when you stay.
Do the work within the current dynamic.
Matterless love is the purest love there is.
The human wants a particular thing. The being loves (and uses) what is.
It's not true love until there's nothing in the way.
People ‘love’ you more when you suffer. Let that shit sink in.
They ‘love’ you on your way. But not once you arrive.
If you have to dilute yourself for love, it's not love at all.
If you aren’t fascinated by and obsessed with your lover, then what’s the fucking point?
I’m not here to spread love and light. I’m here to disrupt the grid. I’m here to dig and dismantle. I’m here to make the unknown, known.
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I go where it’s the loudest, just to make it quiet.
I don’t move until I’m moved.
Here, right now, is the only place that's true.
The higher you go, the quieter it gets.
No one can take you where no one has gone before.
The only thing that's 'earned' is the state you experience from the work you do to keep that inner non-space pristine.
Death is nothing more than dropping form and remaining formless.
Heaven is THIS; not that. Heaven is HERE; not there.
It’s about how still and spacious you are (and stay) as every piece drops in.
There’s a still point deep inside you. Everything comes from that.
Saying nothing says everything that needs to be said.
She’s most aroused while in the void.
If there’s nothing left, I’m out. If there’s no thing at all, I’m in.
Truth exists, always was, is, and will be, regardless of the noise.
Stillness. Silence. S p a c e. Beneath the chaos, that’s all there is.
When you move, nothing moves. Everything moves when you’re still.
Existing wide awake and never moving IS the happening.
no thing = everything
Purity is the currency.
THIS or nothing + THIS because there’s no thing.
When you see through and exist beyond space and time, it’s a pretty fucking epic ride.
Nothing can bridge the (illusory) consciousness gap. Only no thing can.
Why would you want anything other than what already is?
How could it get better than this when this is all there is?
when there’s no one / when there’s no thing / when you’re empty / then you’ll see
Nothing is sacred unless everything is.
Every question answers itself.
What feels like magic is just you unobstructed.
Nothing needs to be added. What’s removed is what changes the game.
The more that’s removed, the more there is.
Let there be nothing. It's the breeding ground for more.
You’re here to clear the atmosphere.
In the void, you’re free.
Anything that isn’t truth, that isn’t you, is clutter.
Them: “What do you do for a living?” Me: “Float through space.”
It takes so little to play with me. But most are filled with so much.
Your system is naturally self-cleaning.
I was terrified there would be nothing left. But when nothing was left, I was free.
Your job isn’t done until the matter is gone.
as empty as empty can be
All things exist to be made pure.
Love is when nothing remains.
The deepest truths apply across the board. They’re simple, obvious, light.
from the depths / from the silence / from the world beyond this one
Nothing is missing.
I’m here to keep flying in the face of what IS. To want nothing different from the moment I’m in.
home is where i am / and where i’ve always been
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Exhaustion comes from self-abandonment (a lack of integrity) while dealing with other people; not from dealing with other people.
The more you self-abandon, the more symptomatic you become.
All you’re doing with all that doing is dancing around your own fire.
You only point at others when you’ve turned against yourself.
Your habitual state is not your natural state.
It’s all your own (un)doing.
If you weren't trying to outsource from another what you can only provide for yourself, you would not have ended up in something that hurts you.
To blame the ‘narcissist’ for ‘manipulating’ you into ignoring that initial gut feeling and your brilliant inner knowing is completely absurd.
Why are you mad at them for your choice to betray yourself?
Your system inevitably screams NO when you've ignored its multiple whispers.
“Things were never the same after that.” After you stayed when you should have left.
If you do it ‘for’ or ‘because’, it's not IT.
Others aren’t distracting you. You’re using others to distract yourself.
If you choose something or someone over yourself, you're gonna have a hard time.
It all goes out the window in the face of what is.
It’s the inability to withstand the intense aliveness of being that drives the impulse to dilute or run from it, just as the inability to withstand it drives the impulse to seek that same jolt of aliveness through superficial means.
We only feel the need to ‘escape’ when we’re existing unnaturally.
It hurts so you can learn how to not do that shit that hurts you.
Regardless of the ‘issue’, it’s about your relationship to power.
The other isn't the reason that you deviate from YOU. The other is the excuse you use to abandon what is true.
You only need to 'cope' when you choose to leave home.
You want to leave because you’ve yet to fully own YOU. And there’s no greater pain than that.
One must abandon themselves in the attempt to fill through external means what can only be satisfied internally through learning how to not self-abandon in the first place.
What's a little more poison when you're already sick?
You want to be chosen without choosing yourself.
Living inside a NO is one of the helliest hells there is.
It's you that puts things in your own way.
Approval seeking aka self-rejecting.
I won't abandon myself for another. No one is worth that transgression.
You get what you say yes to. And all the shit that brings.
Your deepest, most excrutiating pain comes from one thing only.
You lied to yourself before (and more than) they ever lied to you.
Life will force the expansion you’re not willing to take on your own.
You do what you’re told by them. I do what I’m told by me.
You think it’s too risky to be wild. So you’d rather play dead to stay ‘safe’.
The powerless surrender to illusion. The powerful submit to truth.
Your level of pain is equal to your level of resistance. To your genius. To your power. To truth.
You are the only remedy for your suffering.
Waiting on God is waiting on you.
When you deny yourself, you deny God itself. #samething
Obligation is self-imposed.
Follow yourself. Unfollow the rest.
When you aim, you miss.
Stop leaving HERE to go 'there' and the ‘problem’ dissolves.
You created X when you disowned the truth. When you own the truth, X disappears.
Their maps can’t take you HOME.
Don’t look to me for how to be. You already know what to do.
You’re not at the mercy of the planets.
How to successfully human: 1. Honour external commitments. 2. Ignore internal commands.
Stop buying into your own bullshit and you’ll be just fine.
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What you actually want and are, is beyond the mind and the need to manage it or anything else.
Mind over matter? The mind IS matter.
You can’t honour truth through logic.
Mindset work takes you even deeper into the programming (illusion) you’re attempting to free yourself from by doing mindset work.
The only ‘tool’ you actually need is custom-built into each moment.
You use and teach tools and processes because you don’t trust yourself enough to go rogue.
Why would you put the mentally ill (human) in charge of your life?
The real ‘no contact’ is with the abuser in your head.
Thoughts don't create distortions. They're sourced from them.
Thoughts don’t create reality. You do. And you are not your thoughts.
The human thinks one thing. The being knows another.
Don’t mind me. I’m just freebasing life.
Do it in your head = head game. Do it for real = game over.
“WhY iS tHiS pErSoN wHo sHoWeD mE riGhT fRoM tHe sTaRt tHaT tHeY aiN’t riGhT iN tHe hEaD… nOt aCtiNg riGhT?”
If you care more about what they think than you do about what’s true, you’re in a prison of your own design.
I lose friends and gain followers for saying what’s on my mind. (2012)
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Hail nothing.
New moment? Back at it.
The higher you go, the quieter it gets.
Everything is an exercise in personal power.
Everything you make matter, becomes your Master. When nothing matters, you’re free.
You don’t actually want to be saved. You want to be the Master of yourself and the domain that’s housed by you.
Each iteration fuels the next.
Enter the belly of the imagined beast.
GO. ALL. IN.
Almost no one wants to go all the way.
If with or without doesn't feel the same, your work is to bridge that divide.
Anything you rely on will will be stripped from you. You may as well strip yourself.
The work is to do the work until nothing remains. Until nothing can move you from you.
Masters exist beyond the tribe.
Most can’t ride. Let alone fly.
In the land of energetics, it's every hottie for themselves.
You know exactly how to clean up your shit.
Rise through the ranks within yourself.
What you've yet to master in the non-physical, you over-compensate for in the physical.
The powerless surrender to illusion. The powerful submit to truth.
Masters don’t need to be pushed or kicked. They willingly jump off the cliff.
When you know the game is to become more conscious, you use everything in front of you towards that end.
I don’t care about bridging our divide. I care about bridging my own.
I don’t care how it appears. I know what’s going on.
Don't aim to help others. Master yourself. This 'helps' them most of all.
Those who come to you, just know. Because you know. And they want to dance with that knowing.
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You ask but you already know.
Every question answers itself.
How do you know you're insane? You want this moment, this situation, this person, to be different.
Kill or be killed? No. Kill and be killed. Repeatedly.
It’s not about how long it lasts. How long does it remain true?
Why would you put the mentally ill (human) in charge of your life?
My drug of choice? Consciousness.
Who cares if no one likes it? Who cares if no one gets it? Is it true? Is it you? That's enough.
Actions speak louder than words? Energy speaks louder than both.
Why would you want anything other than what already is?
How could it get better than this when this is all there is?
If you’re creating a system to counter the system… Need I say more?
Why are you mad at them for your choice to betray yourself?
Why manage something you shouldn’t be fucking with at all?
WHO. GIVES. A. FUCK. DO. WHATEVER. THE. FUCK. YOU. WANT.
“Hey, I ignored myself. Can you do me a solid and correct it on your end?” What you’re actually saying to someone when you ask or expect them to change.
Why would you need to forgive? What happened wasn’t wrong. Nor was it about you.
From the outside, it looked insane. To my human, it felt like hell. But obliteration was what I was after. Why else would I have danced right there?
Mind over matter? The mind IS matter.
That thing? That person? Not more powerful than you.
Do you want what your human wants or do you want the fucking truth?
What's a little more poison when you're already sick?
If you aren’t fascinated by and obsessed with your lover, then what’s the fucking point?
It doesn’t matter what you learned back then. What do you know now?
No pleasure in the process? No pleasure in the outcome. Pleasure in the process? The outcome becomes irrelevant.
Since when does a god have to try?
Pure consciousness. That’s what you are. Why would you need time?
Is my genius taking over your timeline? Boofuckinghoo. And you’re welcome.
Them: “What do you do for a living?” Me: “Float through space.”
Why would I be less me for anybody? The more me, the better. For everybody.
Are you naked yet?
New moment? Back at it.
If you’re not being transported, then what’s the fucking point?
It’s not: “Why are they like that?” It’s: “Why am I with that?”
“WhY iS tHiS pErSoN wHo sHoWeD mE riGhT fRoM tHe sTaRt tHaT tHeY aiN’t riGhT iN tHe hEaD… nOt aCtiNg riGhT?”
Why block? Let them see you be great.
You don’t have it? You don’t need it. When you need it, it will come.
Until they say, “Who IS this bitch?”, my mission is not complete.
I don't ask because I don't care.
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There is the ‘me’ (and ‘you’) that dips into illusion / delusion / perceived separation / a temporary state of fear and insanity (looking at life / self / others through the limited / distorted human lens).
And the ME (and YOU) that exists in actual reality.
In sanity / union / peace / clarity / purity / potent power.
In REAL love (not the human kind) -
with nothing in the way.
It’s not one or the other though.
The other is part of THE ONE.
That noisy ‘me’ is part of ME.
That noisy ‘you’ is part of YOU.
Every part is part of THE EVERYTHING.
So it belongs and it’s not wrong.
It’s here to be seen and then seen through.
Until it’s quiet once again.
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You never get there.
What slows you down still speeds you up.
Every being chooses when it enters and leaves this world. As well as what it enters into.
There are times when a NO within an experience is enough to keep it fresh and intact energetically. And times when a NO must be applied to it directly, in order to maintain that same level of integrity.
The truth of now voids the story of then.
‘Then’ doesn't exist in either direction.
Being ahead of your time is still on time.
‘A’ doesn’t equal ‘B’ when you play in the unseen.
The only reason why you haven’t ‘gotten over’ your ‘past’ is because you’re using it in the present to justify why you’re not free.
Pure consciousness. That’s what you are. Why would you need time?
The human needs time. The being exists outside of it.
If you choose something or someone over yourself, you're gonna have a hard time.
She has the time. Just not for you.
Every where is here. Every time is now.
When you stop making it matter, it comes. Or it doesn’t. By then, it doesn't matter.
You don’t need more time. You just need to listen to you.
There are times when silence is the absolute truth. And times when it’s used to avoid it.
When you see through and exist beyond space and time, it’s a pretty fucking epic ride.
It takes consciousness. Not time.
consciousness > time
Someone 'coming into power' is not a defining line on the timeline any more than a falling leaf is.
You don’t have it? You don’t need it. When you need it, it will come.
Once upon a time, I fed myself to a wolf. I knew he was a wolf. And I wanted to be devoured.
Is my genius taking over your timeline? Boofuckinghoo. And you’re welcome.
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Organizing clutter doesn’t get rid of clutter.
You know exactly how to clean up your shit.
Anything you rely on will be stripped from you. You may as well strip yourself.
The cleaner it gets inside and out, the more one notices - and the less one tolerates - debris of any kind.
The only thing that's 'earned' is the state you experience from the work you do to keep that inner non-space pristine.
They bring their mess to clean you up.
The mess is part of the art.
The things that jam your circuits are the portals to yourself.
You don’t ‘come down’ from clean energy. You just get cleaner.
The more that’s removed, the more there is.
Oh, how I love when there's nothing in the way.
Clutter is an accumulation of denied truth.
It takes so little to play with me. But most are filled with so much.
Getting unjammed where it’s been the most jammed, unjams you everywhere else.
The human needs the clutter. The being is the space.
Stillness. Silence. Space. Beneath the chaos, that’s all there is.
I go where it’s the loudest, just to make it quiet.
Anything that isn’t true, that isn’t you, is clutter.
Nothing needs to be added. What’s removed is what changes the game.
You’re here to clear the atmosphere.
Your system is naturally self-cleaning.
Stay until nothing is left.
Your job isn’t done until the matter is gone.
From cluttered to clean. From restless to still. That’s the electric tone.
If there’s nothing left, I’m out. If there’s no thing at all, I’m in.
Either clean it up so that it hits your spot or let that fucking thing go.
The real magic doesn’t happen once you get the shit. It happens once you clear it.
Accumulation doesn’t impress or interest me. I prefer things light; not heavy.
You can clean it all up in an instant.
What feels like magic is just you unobstructed.
Bypassing does exist. But only if there’s clutter.
The best ‘results’ come from dissolving inner resistance (seeing through matter which turns it right back to nothing); not from applying force externally in an attempt to compensate for the accumulation of matter that’s creating said resistance.
It’s not because you can’t clean it up. You just don’t want to - yet.
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Nothing is innately ‘wrong’.
Never has been.
Never will be.
Not with you.
Not with life.
Not with the moment.
Not with the other.
THAT is the starting point.
And…
that acceptance of what is as it is right now,
without a skewed lens applied to it,
doesn’t mean you condone a thing.
And it doesn’t mean you passively participate in life because ‘it is what it is’, either.
It just means you see clearly and you move accordingly without the internal resistance to what is.
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The energy of ‘fighting against’ is more disruptive and detrimental to your system than the thing you’re fighting against.
They’re not against you just because they’re for themselves.
When you’ve deviated from the truth and natural movements of your being (a complete betrayal to your system), the only way to live with that internal split is to distract yourself with self-created 'issues’ that would not exist (and ultimately don't) had you remained in your power (your natural state) in the first place.
When you’ve got nothing to prove and nothing to lose, you’re dangerous. And free.
A system knows nothing beyond itself.
If you’re creating a system to counter the system… Need I say more?
Anti is still pro.
Your habitual state is not your natural state.
Parameters keep you caged; not safe.
You can't use external metrics to measure what's actually true.
The only ‘tool’ you actually need is custom-built into each moment.
You use and teach tools and processes because you don’t trust yourself enough to go rogue.
Your system is naturally self-cleaning.
Your system inevitably screams NO when you've ignored its multiple whispers.
No amount of movement (or lack of movement) in the physical can override or compensate for the instability in your system.
The inner resistance you’re trying to ‘overcome’ by doing X,Y,Z, is the only (illusory) thing you actually need to ‘work on’.
The devil will never announce his arrival. Your system always will.
I’m playing in a new arena because the old one’s much too small.
There is no code to crack.
You must account for the trickle down.
Ask any box and it will say it's the biggest and the best and the smartest box there is. That it’s the box of all boxes. The last box you’ll ever need. But it's still just a box. And a box can’t set you free.
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The only reason why you haven’t ‘gotten over’ your ‘past’ is because you’re using it in the present to justify why you’re not free.
It serves your perceived limitation(s) perfectly.
I can’t be / do / have THIS thing right now because of that thing that doesn’t actually exist.
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Every being chooses when it enters and leaves this world.
As well as what it enters into.
It’s the human that can’t see beyond the illusion of form and time, thus believing something should or could have been different, and / or something actually went wrong.
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You’re not for the (m)asses.
It’s absurd how little it actually takes to arouse and sway the (m)asses.
A ‘king of the people’ speaks directly to the codependent hearts of the (m)asses.
If the (m)asses don’t get it, it’s something worth getting.
Human: runs from the present / dwells on the non-existent past / fears the illusory future / perpetually resists what IS (and suffers because of it) / consistently holds back truth / avoids making the true move / believes things, others, and life need(s) to be a certain way in order to feel okay / creates and then lives within endless, baseless, utterly insane stories / denies its sovereignty / blames the world and others and pretends to be a victim / takes zero responsibility for the creation and quality of its own experience / looks out instead of in… | Being: “And you wonder why you feel like shit?”
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