Makin Moves

Two For One (An Essay)

I had a call with a hottie who I soon realized was nowhere close to being ready for a call with me.

She was committed to her stories.

She didn’t actually want to be free.

So I interrupted her mental masturbation by letting her know this isn’t the work I do and I ended the Zoom call.

She called me on Messenger a moment later.

And I had no problem picking up because ‘new moment, new everything’ in Mandyland.

I was happy to start again.

But she was still there; not here.

So I ended that call, too.

*sends a cheeky new invoice*

Because that is the work I do.

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Stuck Together (An Essay)

if the only thing keeping you together is your unnatural attachment to one another

(and all attachment is unnatural)

made possible only through the sticky and accumulated shit you both have brought to the relationship table

things like your respective and shared pasts

your so-called traumas

your personal needs and desires

your ongoing focus on yourself and the other

then you’re not yet truly together

because of all that shit in the way

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Using Every Bit (An Essay)

Doing ‘the work’ doesn’t automatically or even fundamentally change the externals of your life (and it can).

But it absolutely changes your experience of the externals, of yourself, and of the moment, as you continue to lift every veil that’s been clouding your vision for so long.

Doing ‘the work’ leaves you with a seamless inner experience that remains untainted by whatever comes up.

Because stuff will always come up.

In you and in life.

And eventually you can’t even tell one thing from another because all things are made equal in the face of that inner stillness.

And every bit is used as the portal that it is.

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Sanna On Not Helping Others (A Transcript)

From one of Sanna’s lives:

How do you turn down a person that clearly needs help just because it’s not a turn on for you to work with them?

How do you justify the lack of the turn on?

How do you say No someone that needs help?

I don’t know if you see how twisted that idea is.

How morphed it actually is.

How backwards the thinking is.

Because when you say No to someone that’s not a turn on, you’re actually helping them.

Saying yes to someone that is not a huge turn on is you taking on someone that doesn’t need your help, doesn’t need you, doesn’t need your art.

It is not the thing that they require in that moment.

And in that decision to surrender, you end up creating a container for something that was never supposed to happen.

Something that is a manufactured, artificial thing that is not an actual experience for anyone.

That is, in fact, wasting your time and their time, all because you don’t trust your turn on and you don’t trust your No.

watch the full video (57:43)

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Cheating (An Essay)

Cheating isn’t a mistake.

It’s a choice.

It’s a decision to hide and to deceive.

And…

It’s a weak and powerless move.

Because it’s ‘easier’ to sneak around than to muster the strength to be fully transparent with the one you claim you love(d) and ‘risk’ whatever comes from that.

And of course you have your reasons (excuses) not to live in truth.

Everyone does.

To not demonstrate your love for yourself and another by being honest about what already is.

You’re scared.

You have something to ‘lose’.

You don’t want to hurt them.

Whatever the fuck.

Still weak.

Still powerless.

Still not taking full responsibility for yourself and your choices and doing what needs to be done.

Being with others isn’t an issue.

Hiding that you are, is.

And even that isn’t the real ‘issue’.

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The Next Isn't Better (An Essay)

I’d rather do the work within the current dynamic than to swap it out for another (supposedly ‘better’) ride.

The next one won’t be ’better’.

The same work will meet me there, too.

(Peep this Mandy Bite)

So I do it from exactly where I am and what I find myself in.

The ‘next’ I actually want and crave, arises directly and naturally from that.

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