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No Thing Changed Your Life (An Essay)

“That thing (whatever it was) changed my life.”

No.

Finally submitting to yourself allowed you to experience your true life that was here all along.

You know, the one where your own bullshit isn’t in the way.

You just used that thing to ‘get’ here.

But any thing could have been used.

And…

no thing was actually necessary.

It was,

and it is,

always just you and YOU.

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The Infinite Investment (An Essay)

it is impossible to ‘waste’

time

money

energy

your life

all of it is an investment

no matter how it’s spent

Her: “Even if invested with the wrong people?”

Me: “Wrong aka exactly right for where you were when you chose ‘wrong’, or else you would have chosen ‘right’ instead (which you did anyways because there is no ‘wrong’)

Her: “What if I knew it was wrong and still chose the same a few times over like a loop until I got it? Not a waste of time?”

Me: “Right. That training ground is not a waste because it leads you to stop that loop. It doesn’t matter how many times you loop. Eventually, you won’t.”

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The Narcissist Never Gets Away With It (An Essay)

the ‘narcissist’

or whatever similar creature

you perceive and experience negatively

and / or feel victimized by

and / or want revenge upon

for all they’ve ‘done’ to ‘you’

(but more accurately, and firstly, and in excess — to themselves)

never ‘gets away with it’

they are living 24-7 in that torturous internal prison that ‘makes’ them do the ‘incomprehensible’

and what you experienced

as horrific as it was

while being caught in that twisted web that you did in fact sign up for

(at the deepest level, of course, to access your own salvation by erecting yourself even further)

was only the echo

the overflow

a tiny portion of

a much larger war going on

you were just a casualty

as it were

a necessary

and impersonal

canvas to bleed upon

which was your ‘job’

(obviously)

to take what was given

at the hands of the sickest

and

being caught in that crossfire

of another’s externalized internal war

while gross and seemingly ‘unforgivable’

(but we don’t need to ‘forgive’ in these parts, remember?)

there is nothing you could do

or orchestrate to have done to them

that would be ‘worse’ than what they are already experiencing

and doing to themselves

ab-so-lute-ly nothing

and how you were affected by their split from who they are

(but even more accurately — by how you split from yourself in order to ‘withstand’ it)

is so inconsequential

not just because they don’t care

but because the level of pain

disconnection

confusion and density

that they habitually operate from

leaves zero room

to consider you

(or anyone else for that matter)

beyond their own

incessant need

to meet their needs

that are never met

because no matter what they do

and no matter how hard they try

they cannot quell

that emptiness

that repeatedly swallows them whole

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Frame And Submit (An Essay)

Most people want the thing (whatever it is) without actually having to submit to themselves.

Moment-by-moment.

Not just once or once in a while.

That’s why they do / try all the things to ‘get’ the thing EXCEPT the only thing that works.

They’ll try everything BUT that.

Well…

that’s not even accurate.

You can’t ‘try’ to submit.

You either do it or you don’t.

And most people don’t because it’s wild as fuck and the noise or the silence is too much to withstand.

They want the comfort of the known while craving the unknown and then curse the gods for what they can’t ‘get’.

And…

Your current and forevermore work is to erect yourself enough to frame every aspect of yourself and your life so that each piece is clean and truly sourced from you.

From truth;

not from compensation.

And most people won’t do that.

Many don’t even care to do that.

But if you’re hungry for the potent purity that is YOU,

the only way to ‘get’ IT,

is to submit.

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